Talking Beagle

So I See

So I see right through me, And I know what I've been up to. So I see right through you, And I know the things you do... -Lene Marlin, So I See

Xrays are so funky. This is one of me from a chiropractic visit. Apparently my hip is skewed, my spine is too rigid (straight) and my neck is too slouched. Basically, my bone structure and posture is pretty stuffed. Apparently it is partly due to the fact that I'm so damn tall that I have a complex that I should be shorter and I slouch everytime I'm around shorter people, which is pretty often. HAHA...

I will be away for a week next week. In Perth playing badminton for the state. I feel so unqualified, and I hope we won't be completely thrashed... but we'll see what happens.

I feel 'compassion' is such an important trait to have. I think what the world needs now is not 'love, sweet love', but compassion. It has a stronger pull, it is solid, yet it somehow connotates a sense of commitment and selflessness. This is from my personal viewpoint of its definition. Some might say it is a subset of love, but I think it's strong enough to sit alone. Perhaps the attractiveness of the word is due to the fact that it incorporates the word 'passion'. That, mixed with a sense of softness and consideration. I think it's a beautiful word... A word that brings to mind a gripping altruism in a kind and emotional kinda context. Very sexy.

The past week has made me realise how important it is to have a dream, a vision (a plan?). Without this, there is nothing but a constant drone of 'everydayness' and 'currentness' to our lives. This then causes us to remain stangnant instead of accelerating towards a goal which gives us purpose. In the world we're living in, it is increasingly hard to be impulsive. If trips weren't planned, they wouldn't happen. If we elope with someone, there would be consequences. It's always exciting to be extraordinary and different...that's why adventurous and impulsive people are so fun to be with and admirable to some. But at the end of the day, society is non-impulsive. Bills come on specific days, work starts at a specific time, petrol prices follow economic trends etc etc. And 'improptuness' or 'impulsiveness'....although a novelty at one time.....becomes hard to handle if not moderated.

Going to sleep now....waking up early to book tickets to see Muse. I'm finally going to watch Muse!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Scary Penguins

007 Private Eyes! An inpromptu performance by my stuffed penguins!!
Penguin's sidekick: Clara
Guy being bugged by penguins: Steve
Camerawoman/snickering girl: Lin
Snickering guy/Bad attempt for frog to join clan: Faz

Oh Darling Vegebake

A tribute to good times. This was a classic Easties video taken at a cookover at Clara's place.
Steve, we miss you!

For No One

Every time i thought i'd got it made, it seems the taste was not so sweet - David Bowie, Changes





















Your day breaks,
your mind aches
You find that all her words of kindness linger on
When she no longer needs you...

-The Beatles, For No One

'You are never alone unless you allow yourself to be isolated.' I remember writing this a year back in this very blog. Sometimes I wonder if I was a lot smarter back then.

A brief update: I am currently working/studying in Sydney. I am to complete my Masters in Design this year. I am tutoring first year Communications, Architecture at UNSW. I am tutoring violin part time. I am playing badminton for the state. I will be going back to Malaysia indefinitely next year to work....although I have been offered to work as a senior assistant alongside one of my head lecturers in a Design Company that is affiliated to the University. I am hoping to return to Australia in a few years, depending on how my time in Malaysia pans out. Also, I am officially balding.





















My status at the moment is akin to that of a soggy piece of driftwood. The tide is trying to pull me forward but I've sunk too deep to go with the flow. I need to break off some pieces stuck to me to release myself and let go. Please wish me luck.

I have big goals...to start my own design school, to make a difference, to achieve personal satisfaction. However it seems that to be massively successful, one has to be head strong, persistent and even a little self-centred, allowing nothing to come in the way of the dream. I am incapable of that. The people around me matter too much... I would sway my goals for the people I care for. For my ultimate goal involves not just myself, but the fulfillment of others as well. It might not be the best I can do, for it involves compromise. But it would be the only way I would feel at peace doing it.

I have learnt so much this year. I've always loved sharing my thoughts with all of you. But there is just a lump in my throat that I have to clear before the words come flowing out again....