Social Suffocation

I wanna stand up, I wanna let go
You know, you know - no you don't, you don't
-All These Things That Ive Done, The Killers


There is never certainty in this world. That troubled me before, but now it doesn't.

In time, I've realized that the best things in life are not the fixed things, but those that have room to grow, to develop and to be nurtured in to something unexpected.

It's the unexpected things that stand out in my memory... the trips whereby we got lost or stumbled upon hidden treasures that were not on the map,... not the guided tours that involved waking up at 8a.m to view a monumental building of some sort.

We humans have programmed ourselves to be so caught up with the social structural schedule we put ourselves through, day in and day out... that it has consumed us. Sometimes I wake up feeling like a hamster, running around in a wheel in a cage. Stepping out of the wheel would mean going home from work. But when you're out of the wheel, you're still in the cage...

We're programmed to wake up a certain time. Sleep a certain time. Eat at specific times...

Holidays are planned to the dot. We have to budget every single damn month to make sure we don't overspend so we have enough to eat well and get ourselves that iphone that everyone else has.

Are we just a pawn on the chess board, a puppet in this life that we created for ourselves - this vicious man-made routine that we put ourselves through every day?

The craziest thing is we can't escape. We can only make the best of it. Coz we've gone too far. We've built this world up too much now, to go back to the basics. And most of us are born followers, whether we like it or not. And if we don't play according to the rules, the consequences are way too grim. Just like an ant that strays from the ant nest - would probably be..... squished or eaten alive.

But sometimes I look up in to oblivion. Or sit quietly on the bed while the rain pours down outside. And I dare to question...so many things that we should all question. Should we really be spending hours a day staring at some other car's backside? 
Pandora makes so much more sense than New York or KL. Why then, didn't we take that route? 
Are we all brainwashed by leaders with wrong priorities?
Why are we here? What's our purpose? What really matters? What is the bigger picture? What is real? 
Can we change this. 

And although I'm not faced with straightforward answers... I know that there will come a time that everything makes more sense to me. Perhaps I am merely restless and confused by the structure of the city life and the society that I have dived in to so deep..... so deep that I feel like I will eventually drown and lose myself if I don't resurface to take a gasp of fresh air every now and then. 

Im just glad I'm not in this alone. 


Signing off,
-Puny insignificant ant who dares to question.