Consumer Rights

Too many hearts have been broken, failing to trust what they feel. - Dan Fogelberg, Believe In Me

Consumed I am with life at the moment. Consumed I am with work, the relationship, the house, the new flatmate, the parents, friends etc. So consumed, that I am losing track of the scale of things, the concept of time and the point of it all.

Work. I.W is really sucking me in. It's sucking us all in. Is it due to it's nature- being a final year subject, or is it because I'm stuck in a group of perfectionists who really take pride in what they churn out every week. The pressure increases as there can never be too many shining lights in a group and don't we all want to be brilliant....

Someone got ill stressing about it 3 weeks ago. I think we (or rather I..) need to inject the compassion and the enjoyment in it all again. It's hard to say...screw her preferences, screw the system, screw the constraints, screw the grades.... this is me. Take me or leave me. But dammit, I don't want to be left behind...

Relationships. Time flies when you're in a content state of mind. When you are sharing your time. When every moment can be utilized and there is new meaning to the days and nights. When your biggest fear is not the present, but the future. One day, all this will be nothing but a phase. I know it, I just know it.... everytime life moves fast like this, it is followed by a pause and a silent reflection of what just happened. And a yearning to rekindle. Well I'm living in this rekindlement now.

Health. I don't know about you guys, but when I get ill... or injured... and I'm lying in my bed with a temperature and a sore throat or something... I just think about being healthy again. God, make me normal again!! And I think, WHEN I am healthy, I will not take it for granted. Vince had a pretty scary eye problem which got me reasearching conditions like glaucoma and optic neuritis which led on to further readings of stuff like Multiple Sclerosis. Which just got me thinking... damn, I'm in perfect health at the moment....and I'm finding all these other things to worry about, when some people constantly walk around with acute pains up their asses or something. (and I'm not talking about the mother-in-law)...
...So I went off to cook myself some broccoli. But really fellas, I know it's been said over and over again...but we really don't know what we've got till it's gone. I only had to spend 3 weeks in bed with impaired vision in Nottingham and I tell you... I came out of it all less naive.....

I think I might blog more these days... I've forgotten how therapeutic writing can get...