Befuddled

If we weren't all crazy we would go insane.

- Jimmy Buffett, Changes In Latitudes, Changes In Attitudes

Adjective:

• perplexed by many conflicting situations or statements; filled with bewilderment
• confused and vague; used especially of thinking
• stupefied by alcoholic drink

Befuddled is the word of the month. Perfect to the last drop. I feel like I am sensitizing myself to the world and yet I feel numbness. 'Tis a funny feeling. A bit like an insect bite on your foot that you want to scratch so badly but when you finally scratch it, you don't feel it. Hmmm. Work is not that bad, but I am diving too deep in to everything and taking it all too seriously. Or am I? Actually, there is a shitload to do. I think It is just me attempting to pull a fast one on myself. Training is draining... hey that rhymes. 4 hours worth today. But I am getting use to the adrenaline that will be constantly pumping through my body for the next couplof weeks. Which is not good at bedtime. I need to find that off switch. Phonecalls at 4 a.m amuse me. I hope you enjoyed your dumplings. I also discovered that I really like the smell of Voltaren. Somebody kick me. I think I need to get the feeling in my fingers and the feeling in my toes back. Or see my German shrink again. Yes, befuddled is the word for September. Perfect to the last drop.